Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Adventures in Babymaking

Mike and I are about to travel down a new path in our journey to have a baby. This month we are planning to start fertility treatments!

But before I tell you about where we are heading, let me start with where we have been the past 23 months.

After losing our twin daughters 2 years ago May 9th, my doctor advised us to wait 3 months before trying for another baby. Even though I was terrified, I was ready to get back on the horse (no pun intended) and try again. 1 year, 12 cycles and countless tears later, we still were not pregnant.

In October I scheduled an appointment with Dr. B, my OB/GYN, convinced that there had to be something wrong with either Mike or me. Why else would we not have been able to conceive? Dr. B was very encouraging, as always, and promised that she would do everything she could to help us have a baby. And so the testing began....
Blood Work and Hormone Levels: Good
Fallopian Tubes: No Blockages
Uterus and Ovaries: Look Great
Sperm: Excellent!!!
Diagnosis: Unexplained Infertility

Unexplained Infertility. Unexplained Infertility? I was pregnant naturally with twins, remember? How is it that I went from being extra fertile to infertile? And for no known reason?

While Dr. B assured me that this was the best possible news, it was not what I wanted to hear. Of course I was thankful that nothing was wrong with either one of us, but what I really wanted was answers. I wanted something to fix. I wanted something to blame.

As in the case of many couples diagnosed with unexplained infertility, our options became 1) try medication that enhances ovulation 2) see an infertility specialist 3) keep trying to conceive on our own.

After almost 18 months of trying to conceive on our own I needed to feel like we were doing something to move forward in our attempts to get pregnant. So in January of this year we had our first appointment with Dr. K. Still not convinced that there was not something wrong with one of us, I was very hopeful he would be able to give me the answers I so desperately wanted. He was a specialist after all. He reviewed all our previous test results and even did some tests of his own, but our diagnosis was still the same. Unexplained Infertility. While Dr. K was very optimistic that we would get pregnant again, I left his office feeling defeated. After months of testing and waiting, I was no closer to having a baby then when we began. His recommendation for treatment was to try up to three cycles of intrauterine insemination (IUI), and if that procedure was not successful we would move on to in vitro fertilization (IVF).

So here we are, after much thought and prayer, about to begin our first (and hopefully only) IUI cycle. Through many doctor visits the past two weeks, it has been determined that the procedure will take place on Monday morning, April 27th, at 10:30. We are definitely excited and hopeful, but we are also very anxious about the outcome. As I write this, I am reminded of one of my favorite verses that God has given to His children for times just like this. "Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7).

I cannot tell you how much it would mean to Mike and me if you would remember us in your prayers. Please pray that the Lord would fill us with His hope, joy and peace. That God would be in all the details of the procedure and that it will go smoothly. That the outcome this month will be the blessing of a baby (or babies). That no matter what God has planned for our future, we will trust in Him. That He will be glorified through our journey.

10 comments:

The Gustafsons said...

Lori, I am SO glad you started this. I can't wait to follow your journey and pray every step of the way. Having a blog was really helpful for me; it helped me feel like I wasn't alone in this, as strange as that seems. Infertility is such a lonely place and I think it helps to talk about it. I'm praying for your IUI Monday. I know several people who its worked for, so hopefully it will work for you too!

Randy and Lindsay Key said...

Lori, Thanks for your vulnerability. It will be an honor to pray specifically for you as you process through each day and each treatment. Love you lots!

The Masons said...

Lori, first of all you are an amazing writer! Thank you so much for letting us share in this time with you and Mike. We will be praying not only for Monday, but throughout this journey with you guys. I am encouraged by your constant faith through this whole process. You are amazing! Love you!

Que Rust said...

It will be an honor to share with you and Mike on this path. I know it has been hard, I was there with Adam. You and Mike have shown such amazing faith and strength.

My prayers have been with you for a long time and it is with hope that I will pray even harder.

ThatsBaloney said...

Hi Lori,
I've been praying for you guys for a long time now. I look forward to reading your blog!
I'm wrapping up the story of my firstborn on my blog and about to venture in to our infertility/adoption story for our second kiddo.
Infertility is an emotional roller coaster.
I know you and Mike will be blessed - so get ready!
~jonni

Ken and Pam said...

Lori, We are so proud of you for your willingness to
share with others your journey of faith in having
a child. It will be such a blessing and encourage-
ment to others. The Scriptures you shared are
some of my favorites and ones I have prayed
for you and Mike. You both are continually
in our prayers. We love you so much.

Tracy said...

Dear Lori and Mike,
We love you so much and are praying for you today! I stumbled across a scripture while preparing for Campaigners last week that I would like to share with you. I even circled it in my Bible and wrote Lori next to it...

Psalms 113
Praise the Lord
Praise, O servants of the lord
Praise the name of the Lord
Let the name of the Lord be praised, both now and forevermore.
From the rising of the sun to the place where it sets, the name of the Lord is to be praised.
The Lord is exalted over all the nations, His glory above the heavens.
Who is like the Lord our God, the One who sits enthroned on high, who stoops down to look on the heavens and the earth?
He raised the poor from the dust and lifts the needy form the ash heap; He seats them with princes.
He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children.
PRAISE THE LORD.

Anonymous said...

I write this in tears...I am praying for you at this very moment, you are about to have your 1st procedure done this morning and my heart is with you both. If ANYONE deserves a child it is the two of you...God has blessed me & Chad with 2 precious gifts & I KNOW He has big plans for the both of you. Lori, your writing & you & Mike's faith inspires me beyond words. God bless & God's good works be upon you TODAY!

The Kinley's said...

Lori, I think you write beautifully and even though I can't grasp the pain you might be feeling I do know what it is like to mourn for a lost baby. I will continue to pray for you. Thank you for being so open and will to be vulnerable. Your in my prayers daily.

Crissy

Unknown said...

Lori, thank you for sharing this! I will keep praying. It's a privilege to know you and to have also gotten to know your lovely mom during this year's BSF class.